I have a lot of things on my mind right now….
I miss Jenna a lot, and think of her a lot. Today Ben, my mom and her family cleaned out their apartment. I hope it went well.
I’m tired a lot. I don’t want to be one of those complaining pregnant women, so I’ll just pick one gripe: my feet hurt (they are really swollen). Still, no biggie. And it’s just temporary. I am more than thankful for the cause of my swollen feet, and remember very clearly how much I hoped and prayed for this baby (and all the symptoms that go along with him/her).
I really can’t wait for Aaron to finish grad school. He’s been working so hard all quarter and this class is tough. He barely gets any down time and has been working nearly every weekend and free weekday night. I’m proud of him, and though I’m jealous for his time I am doing my best to be patient. Thankfully he’ll be off next quarter and won’t go back until next fall (late September).
I’m incredibly thankful for my friends and neighbors. Whether it’s kind words or generous baby hand-me-downs, I feel very encouraged, loved and provided for. Same goes for my family – my mom has been especially warm and supportive this past month.
I feel anxious about all of the things I should be doing over the next 5 weeks – except that I’m not sure exactly what those things are. I have a few more crucial to-dos, but the rest of my imaginary list falls into the, “I’ll regret not doing this”, or, “I’ll really miss doing this in a few months.” I think I need help with this part of my list. Any suggestions?
I love blueberries. I think I’ve eaten three full bags of frozen blueberries in the last three days (seriously). I also love sunshine. I can’t wait for summer!
We have food in the fridge from late December that is growing mold. I really need to clean it out. Ugh.
I’m realizing that I could just keep going and going with this (my mind is racing!), but I should probably log off and do something more productive.
Cheers!
Hey Keba. I read about your loss and am so sorry to hear about it. It’s so heartbreaking. My best friend lost her mom when she was pregnant, and it’s a very different kind of grief, I think. Anyway… condolences aside… if you have any free time (I know, right?), you are more than welcome to come over and pick out any cute baby clothes that you want! We have an abundance these days, thanks entirely to the generosity of friends, and lots of stuff that Julia’s already outgrown or I’m compiling in a donation pile, so… like I said, if you ever have spare time and want to come up to NE Seattle, you’re more than welcome. We miss you guys!
not being a mom myself, i just love to give advice to new moms. here are my contributions to your list:
“i’ll regret this if i don’t…”
1. clean the moldy food out of the fridge.
2. eat more blueberries (so good for the brain and bowels!).
3. sleep in as late as i desire.
4. go on more dates.
that’s all i’ve got for now. i’ll keep thinking though. you’re on my mind more than usual these days!
You have never been and will probably never be one of “those” complaining pregnant women – at least not with me! As you think of things you need to get done over the next few weeks (fun activities or simple chores that have to get done), let me know if you need help. You know I’m always up for hanging out, especially since it usually involves eating yogurt.
Keba,
Leave the regrets behind, you are entering a new phase of your lives, and will be busy with so many new things and new joys and discoveries that you won’t have time for those things that you think you should have done!
I feel so badly about your losing Jenna, even though I didn’t know her, and it must have been a real shock and a terrible loss of one so young.
Take care, love you, and are looking forward to some pictures before too long, Grandma